Seeking god when the enemy attacks
1 Peter 5:8-11
'Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil walks about like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Resist him, steadfast in the faith, knowing that the same sufferings are experienced by your brotherhood in the world. But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you. To Him be the glory and the dominion forever and ever. Amen.'
Satan will attack you wether you have done something or not. He will remind you of your past and try to get you to do what you used to do back then. He will attack you with lies, and temptation when you are feeling sad, self doubt, tried, alone, having anxiety, etc. The enemy will try everything to keep you from seeking God because he knows that God cares so dearly for you, his child. But don't give up, stand firm in your faith and go after God. Fight the enemy's lies with prayer, worship, and scripture.
God is greater then the devil, and as long as you keep seeking God and resisting the enemy he will flee from you
James 4:7
'Therefore submit to God. Resist the devil and he will flee from you.'